BISMARCK — Jewel Hecker has seen some deep-down lows. At one point in her life of addiction, she says, things got so bad she was living like character Matt Foley from "Saturday Night Live," "in a van down by the river." Other times, Jewel says, she would find a tent and camp out with her boyfriend, or a cheap hotel room to live in for a while. They weren't below stealing if necessary. Scars she's collected reveal how addiction and abuse can erode the soul. But Jewel doesn't want her story to be another "drug addict who got clean through finding the Lord."